Meditation

We can't change every little thing in our lives.

But we can change the way we experience it.

That is the potential of meditation.



who said this? I guess I've read it from one book but forgot what it was.
any idea anyone?

[corrected] The S3 or iPhone 5?

TOO many people are arguing which one is better. Hey guys just deal with the fact. BOTH are great phones. The matter is not that what is better but what suits you better.

Before you go arguing with people, think twice. We are living in a big world and there are so many ways to live or think. When you can understand another person, you might see something more.

I just watched a video '아시아의 열대 - 2부 까로의 슬픈열대(The tropics in Asia - #2 Caro's The Blue Tropic)'

It showed the people who live in the tropical region of Indonesia. Some of them live in a sort of modern village; some of them are still live in sort of traditional places in traditional ways. The latter barely wear clothes and sometimes they get married in the traditional way for the money from travellers. One of their customs is that women cut off a finger when their husbands die. One of them has got only one finger on one hand. They said say 'it's a way of sharing their condolences for the loss of their men. They also cut the edge of their ears when they lose their cousins - I can’t remember exactly. Some says 'What the hell are they doing in there?', 'It's unbelievable that they and we are living in the same time as us,' or just... 'Oh, dear...'

Well, should we have sympathy for them? Are they really living worse-off than us? For sure, it could be horrible if those things happen in the world you and I live in. But it's not. I don’t criticise for this fact. But I think I’m pretty critical of those who say bluh bluh bluh. We are all human beings. We just live in a different situation, environment, or something like that. Every single person – or even a thing - has its own way to of living / surviving / enjoying their lives. NO ONE should ever judge another. Just face the truth and accept it.

When I was watching it, I was just pleased to see them smiling at each other, worrying about their kids, doing some embarrassing things for the money which would be given for their children's study abroad. I could feel the warm heart of the parents and once again, I could see that a smile makes someone else smile. We are living in the SAME world in the same way but in a slightly (actually a bit more) different environment. We aren’t luckier than them. We are both lucky. We have parents and, children. At least we can smile :)

What I truly want to say is I believe we must just see the facts and not be biased. I know there are certainly cases where we must be biased but you know I’m not talking about such cases. Once you started to compare, you’ll be judged also one day.

Where are we going?

Don't laugh. I'm serious :)

When I woke up that morni... no afternoon, after our 2nd hangout, I just missed you.

I don't even know what it supposed to mean to me. But even with the hangover, I missed you.

I've been thinking to tell you this or not but I didn't do it yet. I don't know I will or not. But I wish you fell the same with me ;) Nighty night.

an emptiness

I've tried to find something cheering. but nothing today. tomorrow would be different. it should be.

awesome busking

tomorrow would be the new chance

I hope that I can smile tomorrow



it's already tomorrow

The importance of the money

우리는 인생을 살면서 듣기 좋은 말로 돈이 전부가 아니라고 한다. 물론 그렇다. 돈이 전부라면 얼마나 삶이 서글프겠는가. 하지만 그 돈은 굉장히 중요하고 고맙기도 하다.

호주에서의 생활을 정리하고 떠날 무렵 가족들과 가까운 친구들의 선물을 사기 위해 쇼핑을 나갔다. 분위기 탓이었는지 생각했던 것 보다 더 많은 금액을 지불하고 구입을 했지만 마음만은 더욱 채워진 느낌이었다. 이 물건의 가치 역시 중요하지만, 무엇보다 이것을 받았을 때 그 사람의 고마워하는 마음, 그 마음이 묻어나는 표정 등을 그려보며 내가 더 행복했다. 그 행복과 기대는 직접 그것들을 전해줬을 때, 더 없이 커서 ‘줄 수 있어서 더 행복하다’라는 말을 실감케 했다.

얼마 전, 어머니께서 회사 일을 준비하던 중에 나와 함께 뭔가를 같이 준비할 일이 있었다. 어머니는 판매자가 되고 나는 소비자가 되어 어머니의 설명을 한참 듣고 있었다. 일의 특성상 필기를 해가며 설명하지 않을 수 없는 상황이었다. 나는 전적으로 고객이 되어 설명을 듣고 있었는데, 일상적인 이야기를 할 때는 상대의 눈과 표정을 보게 되지만 내가 알지 못하는 이야기를 듣다보니 자연스레 글과 표식이 적히고 있는 종이에 눈이 갔다. 그러다보니 자연스레 펜에 눈이 갈 수밖에 없었다. 어머니께서 당시에 사용하던 필기구는 모나미 볼펜이었다. 그때 알았다. 어쩌면 너무 늦었을 수도 있다는 것을. 하지만 더 늦기 전에 해드리자는 생각으로 올 생신선물은 만년필로 정했다.

언젠가 내가 쓰던 만년필을 보며, 어머니께서 학창시절에 쓰시던 만년필에 대한 이야기를 들었다. 그 후엔 어떤 계기로 다시 만년필을 잡을 수 없었는지는 모르지만 그것에 대한 끝나지 않은 동경이 있음을 알았었다. 무지하게도 그 당시엔 그렇게 넘어가버렸었지만.

핸드백이나 구두 등, 너무 좋은 것을 써도, 그렇다고 너무 없어보이는 것을 써도 안되는 특성상 적절한 것을 골라야겠지만 벌써 감격할 어머니의 모습이 그려진다. 사랑합니다. 사랑해요. 오래오래 건강하셔요.